Spanglish

I’ve been meaning to update this biotch the last couple of days and I’m having trouble sleeping, so now is the time it seems. My sleeping problems right now, have way more to do with the fact that I’ve been going out a lot than any anxiety issues. Staying up til 5 being sloshed will fuck your sleep cycle altogether. Especially if you don’t have a job that demands that you be up at a certain time on Monday no matter how REM deprived. And I don’t. Have a job. I’m working on ways to occupy my time though. More on that later when there is success to report and not just the process of looking to mutter on about in a monotone voice.

So, yeah, so far Chile has been a fair amount of drinking delicious wine (to be continued tomorrow morning at 11:00 with a vineyard tour) without any major excitement other than seafood and the fact that there are a lot of times I have no idea what is going on. But that’s pretty much Coletta every day anyway, no matter what language is swirling around my head. Sadly, I have to admit that after several of days of being confused, mentally exhausted and substantially and embarrassingly more silent in social situations than my normally taciturn self, I’ve taken to throwing the Spanish out the door completely with the group of Scandinavians that have been involved in much of the above mentioned drinking excursions. I still speaka the Spanish with my roommates most of the time, and indeed, had a long conversation explaining the US electoral system en espanol this evening. But there is a point where my desire for any type of meaningful communication that doesn’t hurt just says, fuck it, English is the damn international language and we’re all so GOOD at it, why waste all that talent? Those Europeans have spent years and years learning my native tongue. They should get their money’s worth for that wonderful language education their governments are paying for. Plus there’s been a couple of boyfriends whose Spanish was even less than mine, so really, I’m doing it to make them more comfortable.

Movie tip: If you feel like watching a great Chilean movie that will make you feel shitty about capitalism, white privilege, social inequality and human existence in general, check out Machuca.